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I need more time! More brain cells! And more cash!
For some reason I feel pissed beyond words at those J1s who said aj is a mugger school.
If its that mugger then you come for what? Keep complaining this and that, well, if you had tried a little harder during your O levels, then you probably could go somewhere else, aint it right?

Since you made your choice, you jolly well pay attention in class and do your work.
You think come JC everyday is party isit? You think your As grow on the money plant in Ohana isit?
Or you think you very smart? Oh wait, if you were really the top elite, then you would have gone somewhere else, right? You think the cream of the crop would be where they were if they didnt study? Utter rubbish.

Grow up and get a life! Would you rather suffer now temporarily or live with regret for the rest of your life getting some shitty grades that cant get you into any decent course in Uni, then proceed on to get some lousy job with low pay and continue to wallow in misery, lamenting on why didnt you studied more in JC. While people you called muggers are now high flyers with many people looking up at, leading a lifestyle they can choose.

Think about it. GRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Thursday is seriously not my day

I swear I can feel whats in store for me once I complete my A levels.
Its like I can already feel every particle in my body vibrating with energy once I think about what I can get to do after my A levels.
Of course all these feelings are momentarily dashed by the single word, Army.
But I think I'll manage to preservere.

Tons of things are coming down and I hope I can manage all of them properly without neglecting anyone of them.
I kind of hope I'll have more time after my competition in April. After which I should be promptly going into isolation together with all my beloved notes and my TYS.

School has been really draining due to a lousy time table. And tues and thurs are like milestones in the week.

The skin on my palm decided to peel off after playing monkey bars and now I can only bath with one hand, which is really quite difficult.
Its really hard to soap my back and wash my face using only one hand.

Ok. Enough procrastination, back to applications of differentiation and chemistry!

oh yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAO, and to your bro too!

Post CNY review on weight lost program

Prior to the weight lost program mentioned in the previous post, after 3 days of SOME abstinance and determination, after a considerable amount of pineapple tarts and significant amount of the heavenly chocolate, I LOST A TOTAL OF ONE HUNDRED GRAMS =)
So I guess I met my target!

And mum once again, went crazy over reunion dinner because Uncle was coming and out did herself and cooked a meal fit for I think 20 people when there are only 8 people in total.

All the aunts and uncles were chionging Black jack as usual.

V-Day! <3

V-Day this year was quite enjoyable. Loads of people gave me stuffs that I did not expect. Especially the girls. I bet all of them were touched even if by the least bit that the guys bothered to buy roses and dedicate a small note of love to them. It felt good to see them look surprise and appreciative on that day. I am quite happy, got damn lots of cookies to munch on! Many thanks to them!

X-Country

X country was a  nightmare as well as a regret. JC2 boys made history by running the XC TWICE in a row due to some human error.
And before even I started to warm up properly and test my limits, I had a goddamn splitting stitch. I thought I was going to die, the chest was damn tight and my sides felt like it was going to tear open. And thus, EVERYBODY zoomed pasted me. -_-
I had it throughout the whole race. I couldnt even run properly. I had to walk the whole thing. I felt like I was the most worthless person then.
Damn a lot of shame to see people you know looking at you walk, I think it was sort of like a male-competitive thing. Like cannot afford to lose to anybody, not a least to some pain in the abs that just would not go away no matter what.

And so I felt ultra depressed after walking back from the XC. But appreciated that many people tried to make me feel better by saying that it was not my fault. But I felt like I was partly at fault that the stitch developed. I must have done something or ate some stuffs that caused it.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I really wanted to run.


CNY gathering

Today marks the day of traveling around SG! First we went to some super ulu place at Hougang-Serangoonish area.
Then we arrived at a Hougangish area.
Then we traveled to Sembawang area.
Then mrted and bused to Bukit panjang
Finally dining at Choa Chu Kang!

Haha. It was really enjoyable! Love all those ang baos and new year goodies. Super finger licking with special mention to yx house's gourmet bak gua and rae's house tom yam hei bi ham. They were all unstoppable and kept talking to me to ask me to eat them. haha

WooHoo! CNY is coming! Cant wait to go visiting. Not to mention the amount the of ang baos I am going to collect.
Didnt really manage to get enough new clothes for the new year though. Not enough time to go shop for them.
Actually I feel that taking a holiday during this period would really be nice.

Like go to some beach where you can escape from aunties exclaiming how slim you have gotten or how their memory of me stops at secondary 3 or if I have got any secret girlfriend for just one year would really be nice. Imagine pristine beaches with shady coconut trees and gentle rays. Shiok.

Unfortunately, there is CHEMISTRY SPA right after CNY and chem SDL to do ;(
And there is BIOLOGY SPA tml. ;((

And they are finally willing to address the problem. I dont know if I should just say whatever I have been feeling or just keep quiet to listen to what others say. Perhaps I am rather tired of all these politics stuffs and letting them get into the way of my studies, occupying a large amount of my time thinking. I am just not ready to devote myself into such stuffs in comparison to my secondary school days where I felt, I had sunk too deep into.

I'll just see what happens next.
And I made a FIRM resolution, NO, ABSOLUTELY NO, okay la, maybe minimal amount of new year goodies are going into my mouth.
I had have enough of feeling shame and humiliation every PE lessons where the TAF people had to report and run a bloody long 25 minutes. I must have ran more than 20 rounds each week!

And I am not going to hide the fact that I am 1.3 kg away from getting out of TAF. I will and I must do it!
No pineapple tarts, no love letters, no ba kwa, no crysanthamun tea, no green tea, no sugee cookies, no candies, no everything!
I hope I can have enough determination to do it.

And I sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart that Zi Ang can lose more weight faster, its for the sake of his health.

GO GO GO! ALE ALE ALE!

JC2 life has been getting back on track!
Its finally beginning to feel like school instead of hell despite the torturous timetable.

NAPFA training has been progressing really well with the help of friends. friends really play a big part in anybody's life. its like they subconciously mold you into what you are today and they more or less affect the way you act or think. And I feel like JC has been a whole lot easier to endure and a whole lot more enjoyable with them. I hope that we'll always be in contact even after we leave onto different paths in life.

Come to think of it, everybody has a different path for them. Sooner or later, everyone will have to split up. People like Rachel et al will probably go into some maths related stuffs. Golden Girl/ Boy will probably make it really far in life with an astonishing amount of determination and preserverance. Valerie et al will be those artsy futsy people just like my sister. Felicia et al will most likely venture into something with very good job prospect. Timo et al will probably do bio.

What about me????????????????????????????
omg. sian diao.

I dont seem to have like a long-er goal in life. I need some time to myself for that.
Sometimes being alone is quite good for self development and growth.
I do enjoy individual moments alone. where I can really think.
I think I am the sort of person who likes to think ferociously.

And re-think the stuffs that I have thought again.
Thinking FERCIOUSLY is really good for the brain!
It makes you feel the wonder of how the mighty brain works!
It makes me feel really smart ;D quite the contratry to when I am in school when i'm feeling dull and lost most of times.

Meanwhile, ENDURANCE AND EXCELLENCE IS GOING TO BE MY MOTTO FOR THE MOST OF THIS YEAR IN PREPARATION FOR THE OMEGA STRESSFUL A LEVELS!!!!!!!!! ;D

TGIF!

I am damn tired from school. Sometimes I feel like banging my head onto the wall especially on thursday where surviving it meant a milestone in my life.

Had some NAPFA training today and went to the school's new gym! It was kind of exciting because I never went into there before.
BUT. only 2 people ( me and rae ) were mentally strong enough to stay on. The rest pang sei-ed like nobody's business after 10 minutes.
MIND over BODY my friends!

And I had my virgin experience of squash! It was not that bad, although not as easy as it seems. I kept missing the small black rubber ball! I feel very, VERY inferior to bao.Keep on laughing at me. haha. I will play more!

And I finally played badminton! Gosh. The feeling of touching the racket was real good. Like reconnecting with an old friend. And although I got trashed by Bao, I am determined to train more, doing it the proper way.

School's really straining me. But I know I'll just have to move aint I?
I cant expect the world to stop turning because of me, can I?

I may just want to change my address suddenly!
isnt it like the fad to change addresses frequently?

Had tuition just now. Was discussing with tutor about A lvls. I have to start NOW!
People reading this, I need your CONSTANT NAGGING AND SUPPORT FOR MY A LEVELS.
I need somebody to push me!
A levels
A levels
A levels

Away with the old year!
Its finally 2008!

2007 as really an eventful year. Loads of stuffs happened with I think has helped me grow a lot and learn a lot.
Such as not being lead by emotions and making the correct choice during my JAE.

Learning to cope with people who are self centered, hungry for power, odd, selfish, hypocritical, backstabbers, gossipers, and people who like to worsen the situation. Its all thanks to these people that I managed  to make the most of 2007, making me feel very satisfied.

And its also thanks to these people that I managed to find myself with friends whom I know will go through thick and thin with me!

Resolutions and wishes to the new year are not a lot, mostly are not for myself, but for the people I care:

1) Less shouting and screaming in the house
2) Hope that sister can get a better job and a man for herself. She looks kinda un-loved...
3) Help my friends get through when the going gets tough
4) I must work hard and not regret for As
5) At least a 3rd position in Wushu competition
6) Everybody I care for can be happy at least for most of the day =)

I think the holiday bug bit my parents real hard this time round.
They were on leave again and this time we went to Bintan!

The Bintan trip wasnt exactly as fun nor relaxing as anticipated.
The whole island is evil. The place that we stayed at only had restaurants and so we had no choice but to eat there for our first meal which costs ZERO POINT NINE SIX MILLION DOLLARS. omg. can you imagine that? And the worst part was, the food sucked and the service was a nightmare.

They completely forgot our orders and everytime we asked if our order was ready, they would reply " On the Way Sir..." wth. And after we persisted, we found out that they had forgotten clean of our orders! And I am not exactly Mr Jolly when I am very hungry.

Then the whole place that we stayed at charged over $500 000 for taxi rides into the towns and city. Obviously we're not very happy about it right? Its like the island is designed to suck the singapore dollars from your wallets and credit cards. All the taxi rides costs a bomb. Even a 10 minutes ride to some neighboring village costs $48 000! Astonishing dont you think?

And you might think that beach was the highlight? Nooooooooooooooo! The beach was polluted by small specks of oil! yucks la. can you imagine? Small specks of oil lying around so that you can step on them and stay there stubbornly, refusing to be washed off. And some ang-mohs still didnt know that and forlicked happily on the beach, leaving with mysterious black spots all over their body.


But I think the good part was the waves that the beach has. The waters are really quite clean and tastes a bit sweet surprisingly! And the whole family were amused by hermit crabs that we caught!

The whole beach was littered by them! And they're awfully cute too!



 

It was thinking whether or not it should come out from its shell....


I like this the most, the shell is very geometric...



Its trying to escape!!!



All hiding from the clutches of my dad...haha. he kept flicking them around...



The beach! Looks very relaxing-scenic right?



Nicee!!



More beach...



Dad and me!


And to end the day spectaculary;


LOL. random ppl I caught on camera that my cousin was shouting at cos they were apparently spoiling the secenery...and the funniest thing was, we met them in them in the lift the following day...

Rain drops keep falling on my head!!!!!!!

Its as if the heavens have opened an opening in the sky, water is cascading, not raining down.
Water prices must be at a new low levels. You know, how supply exceeds demands and hence, the commodity is cheap.
Sigh. I absolutely hate it when it is raining. It feels as though happiness and bright cheery days have been all washed away into the gutters.

But what to do? If I had powers, I'll zap everyday into sunshine filled days. That kind of days with golden fields of padi, azure blue skies as background and you are right in the middle, soaking in everything! Of course, there would be the occasional rains but not like these few days where it rains NON STOP.

Mum complains that her clothes refuses to dry and almost wanted to place a ban on the house, everybody can only bathe once every 2 days.

Being at home these few days had me thinking about some stuffs. Mostly fantasizing really.
Imagine being a rock star! That would be totally awesome! Not that kind of school bands where almost every pitch is off key/tune, but the real kind! Every time I listen to Bleach Openings, I feel inspired to be someone musical!

I am quite determined to learn how to play at least one musical instrument. Like guitar or something like that. Piano got no money to buy =(
and I doubt myself for having the perserverance to learn.

Right now, I've got not enough time to dedicate to piano. Seeing people play tunes on piano, er hu, guitar, drums whatever makes me feel like something is stirring from within. Like I was meant to play music! haha. maybe just a delusion of some sort, but, I do feel like developing my musical self.

Maybe everyone is musically inclined in some way or another, just that they did not develop it fully and then lose it half way in the growing years. I must have re-awoken my musical self! My natural musical composing/playing self that was meant to emerge since my very birth!

Maybe I was born to charm the world by my tunes, grip the nations with my explosive playing style and shock the masses with my ingeniuty in music acheivements.

Maybe the Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music was meant to have my name in the P.H.D of classical musical list.

Maybe I was meant to be scheduled to perform at the Esplanade this Christmas.

Maybe I was meant to become someone in musical textbooks, with millions playing the tunes that I have composed, and millions using my compositions as background music!

Maybe I was all that and more....

*zapppp* A green light just transported me back from fantasy to reality, with the rationalised thinking and sensible actions.
Oh well. Back to homework! =)